Will You Trust Me?

Recently as I was scrolling through Facebook I saw that a friend had posted a picture that asked a simple question:“What is this chapter of your life called?”It didn't take me long to come up with the title of this chapter of my life. I shared the picture with my chapter title: Will you trust me?The past few months have been a great time of trial and trusting the Lord. I knew that this season of support raising was going to be difficult but I had no idea it was going to be this hard.But in all of it I have continually heard the Lord ask over and over again,  “will you trust me?”A good friend of mine shared a story with me in relation to trusting God. She had recently had her first child and was walking with her around Camp Lurecrest. They approached a flight of stairs leading to the dining hall.When the one year old approached the first step, she looked down saw the challenge before her and without hesitation reached up her hand to hold on to her mother's hand.When I was a young Christian I had the same muscle memory when it came to the Lord. Now sometimes, when I look at the challenges of this life, I’m hesitant to hold on. I find myself debating with God on whether or not this is the right path, try to descend it myself, or I just sit down quietly.In all of my frustration and striving I find God quietly inviting me to trust him. He is never harsh, never frustrated and always excited for me to take him up on his offer.This time is scary for me. I look at raising funds for the ministry and look at God and say, “I can’t do this.”I hear him respond,  “you, by yourself, can’t. But you have me, will you trust me?”Trusting God is never easy. In this season of utter dependence on God I’m learning to reach up to him sooner and more often. I know that when I reach out to him he is faithful to hold on tight.